About Me
I am so many things to so many people... wife & lover, friend, mother... teacher, student ... gardener, reader, poet, musician, crafter ... pagan, witch, psychic, tarot reader and more. I hide my unique qualities and traits under a plain exterior, and only those who truly wish to know me will find them. I am loyal to those I care for and love, and will protect them tooth and nail. (My motto has always been "calm, cool and deadly".) I am open-minded and accepting and my husband says I am loving and caring (almost too much).
Music
I love all kinds however typically listen to hard rock, classic rock, metal, R&;B, 'new age', Celtic, pagan, classical.... I have a pretty eclectic musical taste. I can listen to Mozart to Metallica, from Loreena McKenitt to Linkin Park, and pretty much anything in between and beyond. The only kind of music I really don't care for is gansta rap - sorry. (I did try, but ... no.) I love a lot of the Boston-based bands, like Aerosmith, Extreme and Boston... and a lot of the "local" music too. I was a student at Berklee College of Music in Boston in the mid 1980's, and made a lot of friends there that are still in the music scene. Kudo's and thumbs up to you all!!!
Movies
Excalibur, A Knight's Tale, What the Bleep Do We Know, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, The King and I (w/Yul Brynner), The Craft, Practical Magic, LOTR Trilogy, Star Wars (all), Streets of Fire, 10 Things I Hate About You, Constantine
TV
Medium, ER, MASH, Will and Grace, Law and Order, CSI, Charmed, West Wing, Unexplained Mysteries, Ghost Hunter, most stories about the paranormal and unexplained...
Books
Anne Rice, Stephen King, Marion Zimmer Bradley and most pagan authors ... when I choose a book, it's more for the topic of the book (or storyline) than it is because of a certain author. As for style of writing or type of story, usually horror, suspense, mystery, erotica, gothic, pagan.... if it's romantic it has to have one of those other 'styles' going for it (as in not Harlequin romance novels). When I'm not reading fiction, I am usually reading up on different subjects like paganism, witchcraft, wicca, mythology, herbal medicine, comparitive religion, metaphysical topics, paranormal, mysteries and the unknown, and more.
Likes
my children, my husband, paganism, witchcraft, the Otherworld, mythology, herbology, crystals & gemstones, divination, the ocean
Dislikes
fake people, liars, cheats
Hobbies
gardening, reading, music, poetry, crocheting, cross-stitch, sewing, video games (FFXI! Server: Ifrit ...Character: Willowraven, Spiritgoddess, Dinari), the internet, sex, porn, erotica....
P.S. If anyone can give me some hints on how to change the link color from blue to something else on my blogs, please feel free to send me a message because I've been trying and it isn't working!! Thanks!
OK.. I have been trying for the last 5 days to get this written and every time I start I get side-tracked, so come hell or high water I am getting this post written and posted!! So there.
On Thurday afternoon (2/15/07) I got a letter from a woman in TX saying that she was looking for her sister that was born in 1964 and given up at birth for adoption. She gave some general info (nothing specific) and said that she believed I was the sister she was looking for. Now, for those of you that aren't aware, I was given up for adoption at birth - closed adoption - and I didn't find out I was adopted til the summer before I turned 21 (my b'day is in November). Anyways, she gave her email address in it, however the name she used to sign off the letter used my biological mother's name, so I was kinda sure that she was right - that I was/am the sister she's looking for. I sent her an email about an hour later (when I got my wits about me) and asked her some questions, to confirm that it really was me she was looking for. Anyways,on Friday, I also got another couple of emails from a friend of hers who also works for an adoption agency (Susan), and she was helping her look for her sister. Her email had very detailed info that left no doubt in my mind - I am the sister she's been looking for. I called up Susan and spoke with her for about an hour. Come to find out, my sister (who is now 45 yrs old) has been looking for me since she was 12! Yep, you read that right - 12 years old. I was floored. Still am, actually. So Susan tells me she will write to my sister (who's name is Dawn - another Dawn!!) and let her know she spoke with me and give her my phone number and stuff. When neither one of us heard from her on Saturday, she left a message on her phone, and emailed me to tell me. Well, on Sunday morning I had a voice message on my cell - from my sister! I was amazed. She wanted to talk to me. She wants to get to know me, she is really excited. She also sent me an email to tell me that she had to go to work and would try calling me again later on Sunday PM, when she got out of work. Well, around 5:30 or so, she calls back, and we ended up talking for 2 HOURS! We found out that we have a lot in common, and we get along great. We are already talking about getting together for lunch and stuff. I am so excited - and totally floored!! She sent me some pictures in the mail which I got yesterday and there is a resemblance. And the things they say about how people in the same family carry similar likes and dislikes - its true. Even though I didn't grow up with her (or my other 7! siblings - one of which is deceased) I have a lot of things in common with them too! Totally amazing.
She said that some of my siblings know about me, some don't. She said she will tell them as she can, when the time is right. She said our sister knows as much about me as she does so she will probably tell her soon. Some of my brothers know very little to nothing about me. My biological mother is still alive, and says (at this time) that she doesn't really want to meet me or get to know me, however Dawn said that may change. She isn't sure how she will tell her - or if. She will play that by ear. I told Dawn that I have no ill feelings towards her and I respect her wishes. I am not mad at her for giving me up. I understand how hard a decision it was and that she must've had good reasons at the time. Whatever they were/are, I don't hate her, I'm not mad at her. Come to find out, when I was living in MA, I was about 4 or 5 towns away from her. So close....
You know, once I found out I was adopted, I would wonder how I would take the news if I was to find my biological mother (family) if I ever did find them. Now I know. And it's a great feeling. For years I felt like an orphan. Now Dawn tells me "well you're not an orphan anymore". And it's the most awesome feeling.
Thursday, February 15, 2007, 01:54 PM CST [General]
I have been trying to change my format for my profile (etc) and it won't let me change it. Keeps resetting to the one I chose when I first signed up. I am trying to change it to custom settings and yes, I am clicking on the 'save changes' at the bottom, but they aren't taking. I keep ending up with the chaos template that I chose at the start. Any suggestions or advice or help would be greatly appreciated. I can't even get it to change to the 'blank' template!!
EDIT: Ok... managed to get the blank template to load, but still can't get the custom settings to load, so any help with that would be awesome!! Thanks in advance.